Have you ever missed somebody even though you were the one to "technically" do the leaving? I miss my friend. I need to give her time to deal with some things that I said to her (about her...about the friendship). Even though this, hopefully temporary, breech in our friendship is, for all intents and purposes, my fault. I feel like maybe my words weren't understood or that she's decided that our friendship isn't worth the fight. I'm giving her time, but in the mean while, my mind keeps making up reasons, like the one above. Luckily, I maintain my sanity (despite outside pressures to the contrary) and realize that the girl has an INSANELY busy life and is most likely just waiting until she has a substantial amount of quiet, private time to reflect on my comments and formulate a response. I understand that it might be QUITE a while before she has the time and is willing to spend her long-sought-after down time to do something fairly unpleasant.
Also...something to consider: The nets that catch us when we fall can get holes, can have weak spots or might otherwise need our attention before we can expect them to catch us when we fall.
If I can stop one heart from breaking
I shall not live in vain,
If I can ease one life the aching
or cool one pain,
or help one fainting robin
unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.(Emily Dickinson)
I leave you peace; my peace I give to you. I do not give it to you as the world does. So don't let your hearts be troubled or afraid. (John 14:27)
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