tired, oh so very tired. I spent the day at the beach with the parents and the dogs...that basically means that we drove (well, I read/slept on the backseat...) for 7 hours total and spent about 1.5 hours on the beach - that's the way to do it babee! I love the beach, and I love going to the beach with my dogs - amazing. My parents claim that it was freezing, but I enjoyed lounging on the blanket in my two piece. Don't forget, I also took a rock hike with my dad - we climb the rocks at the end of the beach and scrounge around for shells - tradition, and a darn good one!
after reading irene's blog, i realized that i miss the bonding that goes into pre-rush (or pre-recruitment, or whatever they're calling it now) - the bits where you remember why you're in a sorority and suddenly make new friends, thinking, "why wasn't I friends with you before??" oh well... i'm glad, too, that i didn't have to pack up all my stuff and say goodbye, like i've done for the past 4 years. i get to stay home for a while.
still, i get to feeling lonely - doesn't everyone? Simon and Garfunkel were singing "and a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries," and I got to thinking - do I set myself apart from the rest of the world on purpose? Well, if I don't do that, I've at least checked out from the rest of the world for the past few weeks. Since we got back from Europe, I've been kind of spacy - I'm in this weird transition phase, between getting a job (any day now - something I dread and desire) and just graduating... I don't know what comes next, and that REALLY FREAKS ME OUT.
i've always known what comes next, and this time, I DON'T. I have all the control and no control. I have complete freedom and no freedom. I can go anywhere in the world, but I don't know how to get there.
thank you and good night.
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