My mom hit it on the nail today. I won't be happy until I have that one thing that I crave the most: love. Certainly, I have friendship love and family love, and all of it means more than the world to me. But what I want, have always wanted, is that true and complete love between a man and a woman. It's like those women who have the entire world at their feet, but they don't have a child. I am certainly grateful for what I do have, but there is still something missing - it's that old hole in my heart, that only "he" can fill. Now, I just have to find him. Sounds simple - wish it was.
Today, work was better. I got to go to a meeting and take notes. It was actually fun, b/c I got to defend a sorority girl (she had to do rush stuff and so might miss a meeting...I explained about how serious rush is), haha. Also, it made me miss Nick Short - never thought I'd say THAT! This one guy kept asking questions and having attitude, just like my little alcoholic co-worker...ahhh. Anyway, I realized that I need a job with a bit more intellectual stimuation - I really liked working as a Senior Tutor, and I need to find a career like that. Honestly, I've been considering teaching as a career....my goals are taking shape!
Love goes out to Irene whose sister left for grad school - all the way in frigging NEW YORK! I love ya, Irene, and you'll make it. Take what she's taught you and keep putting it into practice. That, and get her to start using im!! Also, you've got a lot of people in Cali who love you and are perfectly willing to give you lots of free advice (I know it's not the same...).
Anyway, I'm tired. I give this advice: Avoid working full time, if at all possible.
Peace.
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