I could never be a politician, a celebrity...or popular!

It's amazing to me that in each of my new classes, the professors ask us to introduce ourselves and "make friends." I don't have anymore room in my brain for the information that comes with meeting new people. I know I sound like some kind of old fogey, stuck in her ways, but seriously, I don't have room in my head for meeting new people...online.

If I were taking all of these classes face to face, it would be a lot easier to develop a peer group, you know that group you always sit with, in class. Online, especially in an environment without pictures, it's really difficult for me to keep track of who is who and who does what. I am trying to comprehend the meaning of "ready reference" and how to do a "readers advisory," and I simply cannot keep up with how many pets and kids people have (although I am rather impressed that one woman in one of my classes has 4 kids under 4 and is taking 2 classes...that adds up to a LOT of work). Does this make me a bad person?

Or maybe it's just that I acknowledge that I didn't apply to grad school so that I would make loads of new friends. I'm not looking to trade in any of my friends, thank you very much!

Okay, so remember that eternal question:

Why can a girl only get a boyfriend when she already has a boyfriend?

Well, I've figured it out.

Don't worry, I'm sticking with the boyfriend I have, thank you very much, but I think I've figured out the answer to the puzzle.

Here we go:
First, the obvious: When you walk into a room with you boyfriend, boys suddenly realize that they want what they can't have, namely: GIRL WITH BOYFRIEND ALREADY

Second, sort of obvious: Girls with boyfriends do not come across as "needy" and/or "desperate" when talking to boys. The boys want what they can't have, namely: GIRL WHO DOESN'T SEEM INTERESTED

Third, the less obvious: Girls with (good) boyfriends actually carry themselves with more confidence and might even get better looking. I'm not kidding about this, since this whole thing started, my skin has gotten clearer, I walk taller, and my hair is wavier and fuller...my mom claims it's hormonal (she also said that kissing clears up acne...she could have a point). The boys want what they can't have, namely: A BEAUTIFUL GIRL WHO WALKS WITH CONFIDENCE.

Now, please, don't get me wrong. I don't believe that women need a man in order to have confidence. I do believe that when you have someone to love you (and to love in return) in that special, non-familial, non-friendship way, you just feel better about yourself and the world around you.

Boys want to date girls with boyfriends, because, for many reasons, girls with boyfriends are MORE ATTRACTIVE and LESS ATTAINABLE.

It still remains, though, that boys want what they cannot have.

So, there you have it, an eternal mystery solved by clear skin and kissing.

I'm no Michael Moore fan, but I think he got it right with this one:

"I really didn't realize the librarians were, you know, such a dangerous group. You think they're just sitting there at the desk, all quiet and everything. They're like plotting the revolution, man. I wouldn't mess with them."

It's odd, because I think that we're starting to learn the things that we're not going to tell other people about - those bits of a person's past that just get absorbed into the relationship; those things that make love unconditional.

Okay, now I get what this means, "It was just something I had to get through, to get me to you."

(from the Hope Floats soundtrack).

Shout it from the rooftops!

This inexplicably commitment-phobic girl can now officially say it.

Well, I could but I can't, because I can't make my fingers type it or my mouth say it.

I can say it like this. In little letters.

I have a bf (aka I am a gf).

That is all.
Thank you.
Good day.

Hey, look at that! I haven't run away yet :).

Everyone should be very, very, very proud of me!

It is the moral values which have been shattered by this disastrous state of affairs; and it will not be the men who will restore them to their old prestige...No. Will it, perhaps, be the mothers?

I do not know how to prove this, but I feel it is the absolute truth.

~ Eva Peron (Evita) ~

This is one of the recent descriptions of my astrological sign -

You're an adventurer, a seeker, and a love-'em-and-leave-'em type. Romance is only a fraction of your playground, but finding love requires more attention. The right mate will fearlessly hop aboard your train and ride along with you. But remember: You have to slow down to pick someone up.

Scarily accurate, no?

It's been over a month, right?

Well, the time *not* writing about boys in this blog did clear up some things in my head. I am, indeed, the common factor in each of my relationships. Considering that I am now practically paralyzed with fear at the thought of getting involved with an intellignet, good looking, well-mannered guy who treats me like a lady (he opens doors for me and stuff!), I know that it's me who's walking that fine line between sanity and the loony bin.

I feel like I've found someone good here, but I have to get over my hurdles and knock down some walls before I'll know for sure.

Darn it! I keep getting in the way of myself :Þ.