For the first time, I watched "Are You Hot?" Well...not so much watched as stared blankly at the screen while I put off doing actual work for just a little bit longer (I'm still doing that right now, by the way). I think that the worst thing was the post-elimination interview with a girl who said that she didn't care what the judges said, because her family and friends still think she's hot. Yah. 'Cause that's soooo important to remember right now - what about the fact that there are 10 BILLION things more important than being "hot?" Although, I guess if she had thought of that question, she wouldn't have gone on the show in the first place.

On another note, I attended a workshop on freelance writing & how to get into it - it's a lot of work! As usual, I want the middle. I'll be quite happy if I can get on as a staff writer at one of my dream mags.

In a class exercise, a mock interview, I was asked for my idea of perfect happiness. I know what it is:
Living close to my family.
Having my own family (husband, kids, etc.)
Having a job that I enjoy going to every day.
Being surrounded by love.

I'll get there. I hope. I have big hopes for L.A. this summer (less than 3 months away - whoohoo)....hope I'm not putting too much pressure on it!

(eight days and counting...)

I joined the school gym, and I feel much better. Although...I did have a little freak out moment this morning trying to get myself ready to go to the gym & stay on campus all day...just a bit stressful. I wanted at least 45 minutes to work out, but I had a meeting to get to right after working out...so the longer I stayed in my apartment, the less time I would get to work out. Of course, after a run to the store to buy a lock and quick trip back to the apartment to fetch the bottle of water I had forgotten, ran the errands I needed to run for work before heading to the gym, I made it to my destination and happily worked out for 45 minutes. Best of all, I got to do my favorite thing - MULTI-TASKING! I got to bike, listen to the radio & do course reading all at one time...somehow, I'm only happy when I'm accomplishing several goals at one time. I had a good workout, and I'm convinced that I'll use the gym at least 3 times a week - it's the first time I've paid for something like this on my own (well..it's paid based on a credit I will have on my financial aid account...so, essentially, I charged it), and I'm determined to make the most out of it. Plus, what's the fun in going back to Cali, the land of the beautiful (or those who think that beauty is all important), more flabby than when I left it...blech. I'm happier with myself when I exercise regularly - plus, I really don't like losing my breath going up the stairs! I need to improve my stamina, and working out a few times a week should help that.

So...nuttin' too interesting, I've just added something else into my super-busy schedule, but hopefully, it will make me happier.

S'all.

Daddy got here on Saturday!! Whoo-hooo...sadly, he leaves early tomorrow morning, but it's been a great week! We survived the "Beast in the East" that handed us nearly 30 inches of snow, we managed to throw snow balls @ trees (squirrels for Daddy...) and make snow angels in Boston Common. We went to Cheers (yeah for Clam Chowder) and watched the Recruit (yeah for Colin Farrell..as an actor, not as the drunken leche he seems to be in real life). It's been a grand week!!

I've officially been away from home for a month. It's the longest I've ever been away - the previous record: 3 weeks (with my family...).

I don't know what to say, really. Well, I can say that last night I was talking with another girl from California, and she said that when she first came to Boston in the Fall, she thought she could stay here forever. She thought, "I can work anywhere!" Then, the winter hit. Needless to say, we're both planning on moving back after graduation - she just gets to go back before I do, b/c she's a semester ahead of me. We're both worried about damaging our skin in the cold...the heat in apartments is drying, the cold outside doesn't too much for the blood vessels in the face. What can I say? I'm a California girl, and I care how I look (as much as I'd rather not).

So, I'm glad (I think) that I made the decision to come here, but I do know that I do not want to stay in this cold, exhausting, semi-beautiful place. Do you know that they don't even make shopping an event?? It's like people go shopping, because they HAVE to...not b/c it's a sport!! This, to a professional shopper, is shocking.

Oh, how I miss the hours spent scanning the Macy's clearance racks w/Mama, the annual Christmas shopping trip in SF w/Jessica...

Last night I dreamt that I had a boyfriend.
I was kissing him goodbye and was really sorry to see him go off to work.
We were both looking forward to seeing each other after he got off work.
As a matter of fact, we said goodbye for so long that he was going to be late for work.
Do you know who this dream boyfriend was?
..........................Eminem................................
Obviously, my subconscious is really scraping the bottom of the barrel!

Computer froze...so this entry will not be nearly as cool and exciting as it was supposed to be, as I hate retyping things.

Basically, I like the concept of Valentine's day - tell those you love that you love them - but I hate that it's another day that reminds me tha I'm not part of a couple.

Speaking of which, Glamour magazine's horoscope section tells me that this month should be about "me," and I should "enjoy being alone." Uh-huh. Because that whole alone thing is soooo different from every other month of my life. Right. Ya gotta love horoscopes.

That's basically it...but, just read it and imagine it funnier - that's how it was before the computer froze.

"If you are happier, Sarah, that is a deep change in you, and thereby, a change in the world - change it by changing you!!"

Why do I even bother trying to seek advice elsewhere...when it comes down to the moments when I am at my most confused, it is always Mama who makes things seem alright...Thank you.